To be honest

I guess I should follow up that last post. To be perfectly honest, I have been having trouble with my assignment the past week and a half. My nails are done, as instructed, I have been wearing skirt suits to work, as instructed. The problem is, I am a typical crossdresser. When I first get dressed, I get extremely aroused - thinking about the weeks ahead of dressing, going to work dressed yet again, etc. Then, to avoid the bulge, I take care of the problem - I lift my skirt and lower panties, and make sure the bulge goes away. I wait as long as I can before work to do it, since I immediately feel like an idiot in my skirt and heels. I want to rip them off and change back to guy clothes. Since all of them but one suit are in storage, per Ms Stephanie's instructions, that might be hard, but that is the temptatio. But I wait until I have just a couple of minutes left, hurry though it, then pull up my panties, lower my skirt and go out the door, feeling humiliated and like a jerk the rest of the day.

I spokes about this problem earlier with Ms Cassidy, and She had little sympathy - after all, it was my own fault if I am in over my head with how long this is going to go on. She also advised that I should take over the coffe rotation for the month instead of my usual once every ten days, go meet the girl I know at Safeway and ask her to help me find tampons and go to the girl I know at Walmart and ask her about buying a couple of nightgowns, as punishment for pleasuring myself without permission. I will update Y/you all on that.